no trust whatsoever

tau tak pening kepala pegi keje kalo bace blog satu hari. or surf internet satu hari. aku tak tahan sbenarnye i gotta get some work done. tapi pagi ni mase tgh minum cappucino sambil mkn pain au chocolat kat office (sbab aku sorang kat office kan....dtg keje pon lepas kol 9h30), aku bace blog sarah pasal how her bf cheated on her and the other girl read her blog.

and as always kene jugak take things personally hahaha.



i think men cheat because they can. because you think she'll never find out. because you think i'll always forgive you. because even if both of us blow up in your face, there's hundreds of girls out there you can start over with.

you once told me that it's okay if you screw up with any girl now. "but what if that's the girl you'll want in your future?". "then kenape nak carik skarang.....carik ar in the future."

yep, that's how men's minds work. i'm generalising it because....every guy i know operates on this generalisation until they meet the one they want to settle down with. and to think you're coincidentally that person is just so naive.

i never used to do this you know. we had drama but when we were together i never doubted you, not one second. never read your mails, or facebook/friendster messages, never occured to me you would ever cheat. because despite what everyone says, i know who you are : even if you're irreverent and sweet talk girls you have no patience for them.

then summer 2008 came and you just had to be so low class about it. and i lost respect, i really did. because i actually watched you lie to her so nicely and i had to watch you being an idiot right in front of my eyes.

so yeah, it was so traumatising and i'll never get over it so it's justify-able if you find someone else because i'm probably gonna always throw this to your face.

so we can still lepak, bertepuk tampar, i'll still lean on your shoulder but you have to understand that i'll never trust you. especially not when you flip out whenever i play with your blackberry. nobody does that unless they have something to hide. and i'm not kidding when i say i won't forgive you if you lie to me.

sounds really perempuan gile bayang, paranoid and stalker huh. when i think about it....i'm not that into you pon. i just can't stand the thought of being lied to. and you just have that face which is not helping.....i always think you're lying to me, even when you're not.

and when i get like this you always ungkit how you're the one who carik me day and night tanpa mengira hors forfait, my mood swings and whether kite tgh gaduh because it's unconditional. pastu complain aku conditional. you wanna wait for a girl to love you unconditionally while you treat her like crap and cheat on her?

WHY MUST BE SO STUPID!!

sile kembali ke 21st century.

*i have regular periods so i know i'll probably have my period in the next 24 hours. therefore i'm pms-ing. but i know that so i know where this sudden rush of beb-hatred is coming from. isn't that kinda reassuring ? though, put it down to female intuition - i do know. whatever it is you don't want me to know.