detachment

the eyes can smile,

the mouth can lie,

the mind can trick

but the heart really can't do anything.

* * *

i had a bad phone interview yesterday. everyone always assumes i'd be good at interviews. but really i'm like everyone else, hits and misses.

i don't know what happened. i was prepared. but the interview kinda wore me out. it was so dull that i lost interest. who asks things like "what did you do before the meeting?", "how did you feel during the meeting?", "what did you feel while leaving the meeting room?" and "what did you do after the meeting?" IN CONSECUTIVE.

*by the time she asked this ialah aku tgh describe demo mase stage, so aku terpinga², what i did after the meeting? in france after a meeting you take coffee and pegi pause café with colleagues. how would THAT be perceived here?*

as in for every situation there would be a meeting at the end like presentation to my stage boss or something and of course the answers would be something boring like, i was very happy. my boss was satisfied, i was confident of my work. i probably repeated those things till i was blue in the face.

BOOORING. i felt like the interviewer wasn't the least bit interested in anything and was going through a list.

anyhow, i answered all the questions but i'm not sure she understood all i said. and since there wasn't really an exchange of anything i don't feel good about it.

felt hammered by the end of the interview.