ke-tak

i've discovered one thing.

breaking up is a lot like falling in love.
you know the feeling....

uncomfortable, sick to the stomach, feeling like your heart might burst out of your chest at any moment, like your chest is too full you can't even draw breath.

the difference is that....it's stronger when your heart is breaking.
nausea. like i'm gonna throw up at any moment.
and it never stops.
not when i study, or talk to my friends, or en cours (ohh..even mase passer au tableau), when i sleep, when i eat, when i pray, when i'm watching gossip girl...

and i would do anything for it go away...even for a minute. Anything.

it's grief.

beb and i broke up last week. and it has been surreal.