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weekend berfikir was not a resounding success.

in my defence, i did think of all the things i wanted to. but i have a feeling none of it stuck. now, weekend berfikir was supposed to be a big event (echelle where i'm in my own world lah) but i started the weekend with an obsession about taylor swift and ended up watching her video blogs and about 400 youtube videos.

another exemple : weekend berfikir is supposed to make me correct personality defects. of which i have many and that wasn't always the case, you know. beb says aku suke menjawab. this is very true. i never know when to shut up.

so i write a list of negative flaws and ends it with, "i must never marah balik bile beb tgh marah aku. or cakap, mmg aku macam tu, kalo tak suke pegi lepak ngan org lain."

right after that beb calls and we get into a relatively decibel-challenged conversation. in which i said exactly the sentence above in exasperation.

sangat  i-m-m-a-t-u-r-e.

i hate how sometimes it's like you don't know me at all and sometimes you know me better than anyone else. i particularly hate it when you don't hold back punches in telling me about every glaring flaw i have.

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i'm also having a one-sided merajuk dengan sfr. because they had a mix up about a commande i made.  and their drh hasn't contacted me about a stage i badly need.

all in all - langsung tidak membantu pihak mereka and i'm so going over to orange! 

although since continental just rejected me sfr is my only hope. satu-satunye harapan. (kenape kene translate macamlah lebey dramatik. abaikan, org yg dah slalu kene reject mmg macam tu)