*post written like 2 years ago
"all men want to be a girl's first love. and we women, want to be their last romance"
There hasn't been many men in my life. So i tend to avoid making them leave. Even when they're not supposed to be there anymore.
We started as friends. Then i developed a ridiculous crush that lasted too long. I don't even know why i liked him all those years. I've just stubbornly held on to the idea in my head since we were 10.
When we got together, i realised he wasn't the boy who i'd idealised in my head for so long. But that's okay, because in some ways he was better. He taught me so much about friendship.
That's why when we broke up i wanted to always stay friends with this boy who made me smile without saying anything special in particular. He didn't have to try, i had looked at him with adoring eyes since day1.
Now he's all grown up but when i hear his voice, we're still 16. We have our separate lives and i think of him now and then with a smile and i honestly wish him all the happiness in the world.
It's true that i gloss over the details. I was young and full of romantic ideas. But that's just how i am, i romanticise things. But it doesn't mean i forget the details.
Because he was my first love. Some lucky girl will be his last romance.
I won't envy her in the least.
I've come a long way.
"all men want to be a girl's first love. and we women, want to be their last romance"
There hasn't been many men in my life. So i tend to avoid making them leave. Even when they're not supposed to be there anymore.
We started as friends. Then i developed a ridiculous crush that lasted too long. I don't even know why i liked him all those years. I've just stubbornly held on to the idea in my head since we were 10.
When we got together, i realised he wasn't the boy who i'd idealised in my head for so long. But that's okay, because in some ways he was better. He taught me so much about friendship.
That's why when we broke up i wanted to always stay friends with this boy who made me smile without saying anything special in particular. He didn't have to try, i had looked at him with adoring eyes since day1.
Now he's all grown up but when i hear his voice, we're still 16. We have our separate lives and i think of him now and then with a smile and i honestly wish him all the happiness in the world.
It's true that i gloss over the details. I was young and full of romantic ideas. But that's just how i am, i romanticise things. But it doesn't mean i forget the details.
Because he was my first love. Some lucky girl will be his last romance.
I won't envy her in the least.
I've come a long way.
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