a lesson to be learnt

kalut. gopoh. cepat panik. kelam-kabut.

i think i've made many decisions recklessly. i've always done that. and ianya sangat merugikan. mase tengah in a decisive mood suke nak list out pros and cons and make decision easily sambil pikir, it's ok, no matter what i'll stand by this decision and see it through. mase tgh mood malas slalu asik tunggu dan lihat, if i ignore this problem maybe it'll go away.

in both cases, in any case actually, it's always hit and miss. sometimes you get lucky. i've often been lucky, why do you think i continue this stupid ritual?

tak pernah nak kaji something dalam² sbab rase......que sera sera.

this year, let's stop doing this. it's as good a time as any.