*sigh* *sigh* kenape mengeluh? saya sedang memaksa diri.

so it's august now. i've been trying to wake myself up from this limbo. a limbo (like the inception definition) is an état where you just continue on without any notion of time, you don't think about the future or plan anything. you just, exist.

you think very hard. there is something i must do. what was it?

oh yeah, conplete the project mase stage, buat rapport, prepare for soutenance, head off into the big unknown a.k.a working life in melaysia. whaaaat?

this spirals into : must find a job. must not find a job that will make me miserable for the rest of my life. must plan an escape route from the rat race.

i look at jobstreet offers.

ehhh, kene postuler jobs like, telecom engineer? network engineers? electonics? reading job descriptions makes me feel like a total fake.

mase interview can i say : yes, i hate engineering. but i think you should consider the fact that i stuck at something i hated for 5 years and come through! without redoubler or rattrapage. in FRENCH.

doing something you like and is good at is easy. try doing something you hate and suck at.

dude, that's saying something about perseverance. pls hire me. and then pls don't yell at me when things don't work.

and yes, i can wear high heels and a short skirt (kidding.....pls tolak aku dari satu tangga yg sangat tinggi skarang)

this is all too intense. let's go back to limbo and work on my codes which keeps crashing today.

ps : in case a future employee or collegue reads this. PLEASE DISREGARD, as you know i am a model employee, this was just the ravings of an overworked student. not me okay, thoughts of kawanku mawar.

ps2 : is it weird that things like, must find a boyfriend or must get married don't even cross my mind? when all my friends sedang sibuk getting married, getting pregnant and having adorable kids? i have a feeling i'll be an andartu paling tak terlampau in the future. tak payah kesian.