just shut up and eat a donut.

as usual, my once in a month pms filled rage is here. makes me cranky. human contact is ill-advised. actually making decisions at this time is not wise but as i'm also suffering from cold feet from food deprivation and taylor swift overload let's just let it pass.

my mini mania has come to a cruel, cruel end.

let's rewind : i've been in a whirlwind of mini mania since i came back from kl. i was dead set on buying a classic mini as my first car. and i would've done it too. let's all just blame wayne because if he hadn't bought one i would never have seriously had the guts to even consider it.

i know all the arguments against it, i'm not an idiot. but i was thinking more on the lines, why not FOR ONCE, buy something i want that i'll really love and enjoy while i'm young? it'll be awesome. and when you've seen how some of the classic mini that ppl are selling has been restored you think, this could totally work for daily use. MINI for life! then i'll pass it on to my grandkids, epic.

well, everyone was against it. surprise. even if i was adamant that it was my money to spend any way i wanted (i'm a firm believer in not taking handouts from parents, comes from a long held fear of turning into anything like my brothers. wow. issues)

actually. i'm stubborn enough that i think i could have bought one anyway, i even managed to persuade my dad to become gila mini kejap with me and visit a mini in jb. but after so many people talked to me, yelled at me, whatever. rational thinking resurfaced. it was the angle i had neglected while dreaming about the awesome-ness of a mini, that it'd be an unwise investment at my age. that if i bought one my money would just be sitting there doing nothing when i could've been investing in equity or something. i had promised my dad that if i did buy a mini i'd be willing to sacrifice my integrity for a second hand myvi in case the mini broke down. stupid ke tak this whole idea? having to buy two cars for the sake of owning a classic car?

here are the two classic minis i was considering. i only saw the pink one. it was gorgeous, like a toy car. pink leather inside ok! recaro seats. they're not that expensive really round RM18K-RM30K. but the joy of it would just come with a whole set of headaches i could probably do without at this time.

oh well. the gorgeous, beautifully restored minis will always be around when i'm ready.

for as long as i could remember i had wanted this. okay since i saw the movie clueless in form 1. that's a rocsta jeep. only it's extremely rare in malaysia. every other cool jeep is manual, bumpy and uncomfortable. and fuel guzzlers and enviromentally blerghhh.

why are all my dream cars totally impractical?

i'm accepting a corporate job. there is no way in hell i would do that AND settle for a vios. it's the definition of boring.

is there a memo i missed or kempen belilah toyota or honda? i'd rather buy a national car i could trash.

since my dreams have been destroyed and thwarted, i'll now be plotting of other ways to rebel.

i know, i'll be 26 soon but i act like a 16 year old sometimes. i should consider committing age fraud when i hit 30, everyone always thinks i'm in my teens anyway.

eh, hungrylah. menyesal tak makan dinner.