All apologies

I once read that when you break up with someone you become that person. Through knowing that person his likes and dislikes, his interests become your own. I listened while you talked passionately about football for hours, for that only I think come hell or high water I'll always support Manchester United (even if you lagi sayang Man U dari I J), I now like 80s music and can acceptably (I think) understand kecek klate, you taught me how to give directions properly, how to properly make a good cote de veau steak and when all's said and done, I don't think I would've handled my mom's death so well if you hadn't been there.

You are a part of me and you will always be someone I hold dear no matter how badly things ended. And I wouldn't say it ended badly. Yet. Hope you don't make it otherwise.

Actually I think the thing that impressed/differentiates you the most from me is your ability to take in something new. To keep an open mind about everything. I always think, that's what I want to learn the most from you. Because I'm such a stickler for certain things, I don't have impulse to just let go and meet new people. And I don't go for things so easily. I always feel like I will only have things to lose when I open up to people. And I always admired how you put yourself out there. You've got guts.

Honestly. I don't know what to say now. Do I say sorry? Why do I feel like I should. But I don't think I'm doing anything wrong. I'm actually not doing anything at all. Not much anyway. It's like things have been slowly changing, the transformation has been so slow that nobody sees it. But it's always been heading this way, I think. You can't say you didn't see this coming. It's taken us years but we're finally here. I don't want to be in this rut anymore. And you shouldn't either.

Sometimes I hear a song you sang on my ipod in the car. Or i'll see some forgotten random thing that used to make you laugh that just makes me smile. Because there were a lot of good times. I just think at this point, it's run it's course. It's time to explore other options. I mean, do you want to stay with a sinking ship? Even if out of some kind of misdirected loyalty you would want that, shouldn't we strategize on saving ourselves at some point (presumably also saving the sinking ship if it comes to that). Takkan just let's just sit here and wait to drown? Let's not do plans. Let's see how the day shakes down.

The day is passive. It can't shake down. It doesn't do anything. The day will not throw you a lifeline or clean your messes or apologize for you.