The old days weren’t always good and tomorrow isn’t as bad as it seems

I've got writer's block. No scratch that. Filter issues. While I would like to blabber incessantly about every issue, doubt, worry, excitement that has crossed my mind, I realize I will have to not sound like a 16 year old bimbo. Sometime soon J. And dah besar sikit, when there are more issues weighing down than exams and merajuk dgn boyfriend/some kind of dodgy friends.

For people who thinks I haven't changed since high school, I realize that is so untrue. Although the change hasn't been for the better. I traded books and the love of all things stuffy and nerdy for clothes, boy drama and girly pursuits. Now that I'm single (sekarang RASE single. Sebelum ni tak rasa single so it didn't count hahaha) I want to be someone I would like more. I haven't read in ages. I should probably dig into the classics to avoid my brain from resembling a dried mushroom. I want to watch old movies and learn to appreciate them. I actually like and get old movies. Unlike obscure European movies that makes me want to beat my head against the wall. I want to make more of an effort for old friends, I've been shamelessly neglecting them. And it has felt such a loss. In short, I want to be Syikin circa 2005 (only improved).

Love made me stupid. It made me do stupid things and made me irrational. Serious. While I didn't exactly throw everything away for a boy I shifted all my priorities in a relationship. I hated that actually. Although at this moment I'm wondering whether me wanting to watch old movies have something to do with the fact that a guy keeps quoting Audrey Hepburn movies to me but nahhh. I'm not going to jump into anything for now.

I'll just enjoy the single life. No complications. Doing cultural things with a bunch of peeps. Like, flea markets on the weekends, spa weekends, plays and gigs. Group activities la mostly.

Ok, checking out Comedy Night featuring Harith Iskandar at La Bodega tonight. See you there?