can't take my eyes off you

lately i find myself going to level 42 a lot. just walking around, even though i have no business being there.

i just can't help it.

i just stare and stare and stare. frankly it's a bit weird and unsettling.

she's one of the site administrator.

she sounds australian. 

she wears knee length shorts to work and has freckles.

i might be having my first girl crush ever. 

(is this the first? liar.)

or 

...............................

of course, i may just be obsessed with her hair.

she has the most adorable pixie cut ever! who am i kidding, i've always, always loved short hair. i think it has character, instead of having boring long hair - even when it's gorgeous and shiny or curly it's always boringly princess-like. bosan nak mampus.

except, of course, with minimal care i can look like a total girl. stok lemah lembut, the type you bring home to mom, approachable bimbo look.

except that's not actually who i am. 

so, one day. i will actually walk into a saloon (or kedai cina 8 ringgit) and cut off my waist long hair. yes, the one i've taken 5 years to grow out. why the hell not? i only kept it cos i had disney princess fantasies anyway. and because my boyfriend at the time had totally stereotypical taste. 

arghhh, nak potong rambut! the more i look at that picture the more, makin gatal tangan rasa cam hati berdebar2 cannot keep still i want to run out right now and get my hair cut.

shit. should someone be saving me from myself right about now?